Wednesday, June 30, 2010

31 Weeks

So, I realized it's been over 2 weeks since I posted a blog. I figured I should at least update what's going on with my pregnancy. I am getting delinquent again with taking pictures of B. It's such a hassle when you aren't feeling great to make a point to do that....I'll definitely get some in within the next week or so (although a blog post probably won't follow for a little bit) as we are going on vacation. He is doing great, however. Always something fun and new with him everyday.

Anyway, so in the last post I let you all know that I had been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. Okay, it was kind of a bummer, but like I said, not a total surprise. The day after I posted it, I went to see a nutritionist and she was very helpful. She broke the diet I need to follow down. It's kind of strict... I have to eat 3 meals and 3 snacks a day with an exact number of carbs at each and at certain increments. It's not really hard to follow at all...just can be exhausting when you are trying to figure out what you can and cannot have. (And really, there is nothing you CAN'T have, you just have to carefully measure it). What kind of sucks is the fact that I have to prick my finger 4 times a day to measure my glucose levels. It's been 2 weeks and I'm still not used to the pain so I'm guessing that part probably won't go away. But, overall it has been doable... and on most days I actually have been feeling BETTER. In hindsight, I kind of wish they had figured out what was going on with me 3-4 months ago when I really started feeling horrible and depressed and wanting to sleep all day (okay, my glucose levels were probably way high!). I still have those days, but they are fewer and more far between. Let's just say that I've been keeping up with household chores and errands much better than I have in months and I feel like I am functioning at about 80% as opposed to 50% (which is a HUGE improvement).

Anyway, I had been on my new diet for about a week when I went to see my OB last week for my 30 week appointment. I was starting to feel better and more positive about this (and I actually LOST a pound, bringing my total weight gain thus far to 7 1/2 lbs...which has to be all baby, placenta, amneotic fluid, etc. instead of just plain fat like I gained last time...again, which makes me even MORE ready to be done with this pregnancy so I can amp up my workouts and start to seriously LOSE all of this extra weight I never took off from 2 years ago). All was good until I went to see her... I think she wasn't in the greatest mood anyway, plus, I am sooo sensitive and easily upset right now. She immediately started talking about the severity of gestational diabetes and all of the possible complications to the baby.... including stillbirth. I was horrified when she mentioned that and I haven't been able to get it out of my mind. Now I am so paranoid about screwing up my baby and not even being able to have a live birth that it's been consuming a lot of my thoughts. I live for feeling baby girl move around now and start to get panicky when I don't. My mind went kind of blank after she mentioned this, so I am just hoping that the stillbirth complication can happen if your sugar levels never get fixed...I've been (so far) able to control mine with diet and exercise. I'm praying I don't have to start with the insulin shots.

Otherwise, everything is about the same. Blood pressure is a constant concern still, and I have been taking it every morning (luckily I have been keeping it in check too). Carpel tunnel is still a nuisance, but I found my old carpel tunnel wrist thingies from my last pregnancy and have been wearing them at night, which helps my sleeping.

9 more weeks to go.... however, I have a feeling that the way my old lady body has been breaking down, baby girl will be here sooner than that.

2 comments:

Kristin Kahl said...

I hope the GD routine starts to get easier soon for you! Sounds very familiar to what I had to do with Miles. Chin up - your fingers start to get calloused after a while so you don't even feel it. ;-) The good news is that for most it goes away right after birth - I ordered pizza as my first meal and it was deeeeelicious. And the only complication Miles had was needing to have his blood sugar monitored for about 24 hours after he was born - and he's been totally fine ever since!

Robin said...

Just thinking about your post and your fears. The best spin I have been able to place on the idea of loss is that those kinds of fears see you through the longer days at the end of the pregnancy as you appreciate every little kick and turn a little more than you would have otherwise. Seriously, that is what I have done for the last three and I cherish each pregnancy. Also, it wouldn't hurt to do a little statistical research on chances of stillbirth. It will make you feel better. (I'm like an unlucky lotto winner it is so rare) I hope for the best for you. I can't wait to see your beautiful little girl.