When I found out I was due August 31st way back in December, I joked with everyone that I hope that baby girl would hold off and be just one day overdue so her birthstone could be my favorite gemstone - a sapphire. It would pair perfectly with Brett's birthstone, a diamond. Most people could care less I think, but I've NEVER liked my birthstone... a garnet. I always thought it was an ugly brown stone, and what do I own tons of??? You guessed it - garnets. For various birthdays, graduations, etc. throughout my life I've received garnet earrings, rings, etc. I know the gift givers were just being nice, but I own so many of these now and I just don't wear them. I was actually one of the few people in my class to order a different stone in my class ring... I did not want an ugly brown stone to wear.
Well, now that we are right at the tail end of pregnancy with baby girl, it's almost a coin flip. My doctor is inducing me on Wednesday (September 1st) if I don't go into labor before then. That's 3 days away!!!! Honestly, the difference between peridot and sapphire doesn't mean as much to me now as it did back in December, but still it would be nice for her to be a sapphire :). What REALLY matters to me is that she is healthy. I am getting so anxious as we are nearing the end. I keep hearing stories about people who have problems with delivery.... delivery of babies VERY premature....heartbreaking delivery deaths....and even a week or two ago, a bunch of people updated their statuses on Facebook with remembrances for all of the "angel babies" who never got to experience life outside of the womb. While I am very sad and heartbroken for these people (and I know some of you blog readers have experienced that horrible pain, and for that I am VERY VERY sorry), it is unbearable for me to hear right now. I am so close to the finish line....I keep feeling for movement from baby girl to reassure me that she is okay. I need to keep my mind from the dark thoughts....
So I am trying to stay positive. Status as of Thursday was still the same. I was 1 1/2 cm dilated and 25% effaced. I go back tomorrow for my very last NST so we will see if any more progress has been made. I am still contracting like crazy and baby girl has dropped so low into my pelvis that it makes walking incredibly uncomfortable, but it's been like that for weeks now, so I have no idea if I'll have her today or Wednesday, but I know I am SO CLOSE to the end!!!!
If this is my last blog post before baby, I will talk to you all again after baby Kaia arrives and will be sure to update with all of the (hopefully) positive details. Here's hoping for a smooth and uneventful delivery!